Combustion.

I have no idea where to begin.  Ok.  Yesterday I went on a small road trip of sorts.  I drove to a town called Salinas, which is about a 1 hour drive.  The importance of this trip is based solely on my state of mind prior to it.  Before, I was getting more and more bummed about moving all the way out to California.  Well on this little trip it was like I noticed all kinds of things for the first time.  The landscape in particular.  I knew it was nice before but on this trip it was different.  It was perfect.  Made me almost not regret moving out here.  That notion in itself was quite profound to me.  A picturesque landscape was worth leaving nearly all of my friends.  I finally decided that instead of thinking of it that way, I am just going to have to move all my friends out to California with me.  If it wasn't so challenging meeting someone who wasn't completely fucking shitty around here I think that could drastically improve my outlook on this situation.  

However, when I got to Salinas I met some random dude at Best Buy who was not shitty.  We had an in-depth conversation about bands, shows, and all things musical.  Anyway, I bought some CDs at Best Buy.  Among them was the new Copeland album.  It is one of the most incredible albums I've ever heard.  If you aren't a fan of Copeland... you will be after you buy that album.  While listening on my voyage home I realized something.  Nearly all bands make songs but so few make real music.  This may not make sense but I've discovered that there is a line between music and songs.  I am not really sure how to describe it as I'm unaware of its entire meaning.  I haven't been this struck by an album since "The Earth is not a Cold Dark Place" by Explosions in the Sky.  There was a line in one of their songs "Everyone knows that you'd break your neck to keep your chin up".  I couldn't help but get stuck on that line.  Dissect every possible interpretation.  Oh man, you have no idea how excited I get when I hear a brilliant line.  Not necessarily that line in particular but any really awesome line.  Especially if it's void of any real definite meaning.  An ambiguous phrase that plays with my mind is my kind of euphoria.  I fucking love thinking, in particular, thinking about abstract shit.  

When I almost got home I accidentally turned on the radio.  It still was on that shitty rap station Vianca put it on since I never listen to the radio.  Well mother fucking Juvenile "Back That Ass Up" came on.  I love that new Copeland album but I couldn't resist.  God rap is so terrible sometimes it's awesome.  Listening to it put me back in like the 7th grade around "Field Day" time.  Then I realized that for whatever reason I have a lot of good memories associated with shitty rap music.  Your guess is as good as mine.  

In more current events I was listening to "No Return" by God is an Astronaut.  Listening to this gave me the most insane sensation.  I could feel all the blood in my body.  Especially in my face, I could feel it move.  I had no idea how to react to this feeling.  All I wanted to do was not think about anything and be absolutely calm.  I wanted to see to how long I could make it last and to see if I could somehow enhance it even more.  Well it got to the point where I thought I was going to combust.  Like literally fucking explode.  That's when I stopped myself.  If I'm going to blow up it's going to be on a lady.  So if you dudes notice a long absence in my writing, you could safely assume that I blew up... hopefully on a lady.  It's so weird I have heard that song 28374628374 times and for whatever reason this time it was so much more potent.  I get sensations all the time from music but not like that.  

So if that didn't totally scare you away from God is an Astronaut I highly recommend you check it out.  Go to radiobutt.blogspot.com and search for God is an Astronaut.  There are currently 2 albums up by them for download, "God is an Astronaut", and "All is Violent, All is Bright".  They are free to download.  The site also has some tasty morsels from, The Appleseed Cast, Boards of Canada, and Mogwai to name a few.  There is a limit to free downloads a day.  Sometimes its 1 other days its like 6.  So check that out if you want or something.

And I really suck at making anything tasty.  IRL or in writing blogs.  IRL meaning like actual cooking of tasty things.  Yes, I do understand writing blogs is IRL too.